Reminder

It has been hard this past week.  I am overwhelmed.  I lost energy and weight.  I have anxiety about being pregnant and having another baby.  I was never very organized since I give birth to my first child.  I have read and learned about organization but I felt alone and overwork.  It doesn't help that my hubby made a comment, "I wish we can keep our house organized."  Bam!  I know my problem and weakness.  I am working on it the way I know how (maybe not as fast as he expect).  Certainly it bothers him (now).  I told him I don't even have energy to do anything.  To be honest I don't care if everything in the house are out.  I just have no energy.  Maybe I should say, "I wish the yard is always mowed and trimmed."  I know he has no energy either.  We are all overworked and underpaid.  Merely wishing is not gonna get things done.  I know I need to get going (short, purge, assigned, containerized, and equalized) everyday.  One at a time.

A friend reminded me today that she would be gladly trading place with me to be sick if that means to have another baby.  I need to hold on her word till the second trimester when I usually feeling better.  I pray that everything will go well.

Time to hit the sack.  Tomorrow is parent teacher conference.  I need to sleep before T is waking up. So grateful for my Savior for knowing my individual pain, understanding, and loving me regardless. I pray that I will be patient tomorrow with the kids.  I pray that I have the energy for the day and can eat something.